I'm still alive
Jan. 22nd, 2018 08:20 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
priscaHello, my friends. I guess a lot of you are already wondering if I'm still around.
I've started this year with a lot of resolutions - some of them LJ/DW related (though I actually should know better ;) )
1. I want to write regularly = well, I'm writing, and I hope to meet my GYWO goal (to write 20 days every month). But all I manage to write down are drabbles, and drabbles and ... ähm ... yeah, drabbles. I try not to be too disappointed about of this, because I know that's not very helpful.
2. I want to be around more regularly this year. Secretly I envy people who post (almost) every day; no matter if they write, do picspams or just chat about this and that. I would be happy if I would be able to post at least once or twice a week.
On the other side, there is/was some stuff going on in my life which kept me distracted.
My ex-husband died at Christmas because of cancer. I admit it didn't hit me very hard; our divorce was difficult, and we haven't talked since about twenty years. There are still some good memories, but he was not part of my life anymore.
It was harder for my sons, though also they sadly had not much contact with their father. My older son told me, he feels sad, but more like he would feel when a neighbor would die, someone, he talked with now and then, but never knew well enough to call him a friend.
My younger son (well, he turned 30 this year) has a lot of problems to keep his life under control (he always was a problematic child) and even if he doesn't talk much about his deeper feelings, I guess it's hard for him, that his father died without he being able to talk with him once more.
He went to the funeral, and after that, he came to visit me for about a week. It's always difficult for me to have him (or someone else) around for longer. It's great to spend some time with him, yes, but I'm so used to it to live on my own since ages already that it is hard sometimes to have someone around for over a week.
:::
When he left me on January 15, it turned out that Tiger is sick. Nothing too serious, an abscess at his anal gland, but for sure painful and annoying for him. We ended up to drive to the vet every second day for an antibiotic shot and Tiger started to hate me = a lot of meowing, he even tried to scratch and to bite me.
But finally, he starts to get better though he's still sleeping a lot. I hope he will be back to his old self soon.
:::
On Friday I tried to make dinner for me when the phone rang. I went to answer it (it was son number one), then I got distracted by Tiger. It ended up with a burned bratwurst, the kitchen full of smoke and the fire alarm starting up. I grabbed for a chair and tried to turn it off (it's hanging at the ceiling), the chair tipped over, I jumped down and bruised my toe. Only five minutes later it was swollen and black-blue.
:::
Besides of all that, don't worry about me, I'm fine, and I promise, I will try to be around more often in the future.
Good night, my friends (at least it is later in the evening here in Germany and time to go to bed soon because I will have to go the work tomorrow morning). Love you all.
I've started this year with a lot of resolutions - some of them LJ/DW related (though I actually should know better ;) )
1. I want to write regularly = well, I'm writing, and I hope to meet my GYWO goal (to write 20 days every month). But all I manage to write down are drabbles, and drabbles and ... ähm ... yeah, drabbles. I try not to be too disappointed about of this, because I know that's not very helpful.
2. I want to be around more regularly this year. Secretly I envy people who post (almost) every day; no matter if they write, do picspams or just chat about this and that. I would be happy if I would be able to post at least once or twice a week.
On the other side, there is/was some stuff going on in my life which kept me distracted.
My ex-husband died at Christmas because of cancer. I admit it didn't hit me very hard; our divorce was difficult, and we haven't talked since about twenty years. There are still some good memories, but he was not part of my life anymore.
It was harder for my sons, though also they sadly had not much contact with their father. My older son told me, he feels sad, but more like he would feel when a neighbor would die, someone, he talked with now and then, but never knew well enough to call him a friend.
My younger son (well, he turned 30 this year) has a lot of problems to keep his life under control (he always was a problematic child) and even if he doesn't talk much about his deeper feelings, I guess it's hard for him, that his father died without he being able to talk with him once more.
He went to the funeral, and after that, he came to visit me for about a week. It's always difficult for me to have him (or someone else) around for longer. It's great to spend some time with him, yes, but I'm so used to it to live on my own since ages already that it is hard sometimes to have someone around for over a week.
:::
When he left me on January 15, it turned out that Tiger is sick. Nothing too serious, an abscess at his anal gland, but for sure painful and annoying for him. We ended up to drive to the vet every second day for an antibiotic shot and Tiger started to hate me = a lot of meowing, he even tried to scratch and to bite me.
But finally, he starts to get better though he's still sleeping a lot. I hope he will be back to his old self soon.
:::
On Friday I tried to make dinner for me when the phone rang. I went to answer it (it was son number one), then I got distracted by Tiger. It ended up with a burned bratwurst, the kitchen full of smoke and the fire alarm starting up. I grabbed for a chair and tried to turn it off (it's hanging at the ceiling), the chair tipped over, I jumped down and bruised my toe. Only five minutes later it was swollen and black-blue.
:::
Besides of all that, don't worry about me, I'm fine, and I promise, I will try to be around more often in the future.
Good night, my friends (at least it is later in the evening here in Germany and time to go to bed soon because I will have to go the work tomorrow morning). Love you all.
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